Showing posts with label Letter to future self. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Letter to future self. Show all posts

Wednesday, May 31, 2023

What astrologers are saying for future

Dear Zing, 
Last Monday Shri Bhakta Dev Sharma, the astrologer came to share the 'KUSHTI' of R'dali. He made some important observations about R'dali, you and your wife. You must be worry about a few facts as you plan for future. 

About Rodali, 
Rahu and Ketu are not good for her. The consequences are skin disease, injury, anger, cough etc. No 'groho' is 'tungot' for her. However, until 11 years of age she will be in 'sukra' dosha and things would be fine. After that 'chandra' dosha will start which signifies extrovert kind of personality with miscellaneous thoughts, in Assamese 'chanchal'. But her study, beauty, performance art skills (gondhorbo bidya) will be excellent. She will be doing love marriage, maybe after 25 years of age. She has 'tripap' at the ages of 10, 16, 28 and 34. Overall, there is nothing much to worry about.

The biggest worry,
Given by Deepak Sharma in Aug 2010
is about your wife. I was appalled to know Nina has been under 'tripap' for last 10 month, will come out of this chakra, post her birthday. She gave birth during this period. Had I known this earlier, I would have got scared like hell during her delivery time.  Even after coming out, Nina's future does not look good until she turns 38. She might be subjected to financial fraud, the astrologer warned multiple times. The moot point is, this is another lonely battle for you in terms of finances. Nina will surely contribute to your life in all other ways, but except, maybe, finances. Accept the fact, be happy and move ahead. Check a good health policy for her. 


For you Zing, 
you are in the superb period of your human life with Shani devta 'tungot' since your birth. Anything you touch should turn into gold in this age. It seems 'chandra' has a presence in my life, and hence I think a lot. I kept asking the same question- things are fine in general. How could 'extra-ordinary good' will happen to Zing? I think this is a question beyond the syllabus of the 'gonok'. 

Wednesday, September 28, 2022

Dear Newton/Curie

Dear Newton/Curie,

We are all waiting very eagerly for your arrival on this planet. Not only your Maa- Deuta, but also the immediate and extended family members, the neighbours, relatives all are waiting for your arrival. Doctor are saying the placenta through which you are connected to your mother's nutrition system is at lower level, which is making us bit worried. Also, in the 5-month sonography you are lying putting your head in the same direction as that of your mother. Apart from that, there is no trouble from your side. You are making some movement at times, making both me and your mother happy. 

We are equally excited for both Newton or Curie. The most ideal scenario would have been to have both together. Although that is not the wish of the lord, we have separate plans lined up for either of your avatars. You don't know this yet, but in some parts of the world, this gender itself is a big issue.

Logistically, your Maa is already planning your cloths, trying to find someone who can help her and your Abu at home, dress for herself to feed you milk, watching videos on childcare and poses etc. I found she was bit upset in the initial days as she wanted some more time as bachelorette and then as single married woman. But now I find her awesomely excited. 


I am trying to design your room with some values that I want to inculcate in you. I want you to be like your parents with more self-confidence, more early-starter nature, with deep love for money and politics, more entrepreneurial attitude, bit 'bad' man sometimes and super creative. If you choose to try an unconventional career (sports, hacking, early venture, trading, dance etc) , I am ready to take that challenge. But being a risk averse person, how much effort I will put to push you into an unconventional career, that is a matter to think later. I don't think enrolling you in the best schools will make you a great human being; rather I want to make sure your grad and post-grad education happens at best places, that too funded by yourselves. I want to enable you for achieving that. 

See, frankly I don't know many things on parenting. I am sure I and your Maa will learn many things with you along the way. Many things that we are planning or decisions we took in last couple of months make us think at times. I left the national capital to have safe delivery of yours in a surrounding having a proper support system. There are lot of decisions that I and your mother are taking, that we ourselves not hundred percent sure where they will lead us. But this is about life's learning, about becoming parents, about being a good son, and also about being a good and smart citizen.

I want you should have 2-3 siblings to grow up with. But unfortunately, I have to depend on your mother for this cause. I have no right to coerce her to go through mental and physical pain for bearing a child multiple times. Whenever she/I would realize the happiness is greater than the pain, you will get someone to play around. You also have responsibility here- don't cause any trouble to your Maa both before and after your arrival. 

You shouldn't feel bad, but I must tell you that your mother would still be my number 1 priority even after your arrival. You will realize this when you will grow old. The other way of looking at this - your mother and I are not two entities. We together is one entity for you. We love you.

You are lucky to come to this planet in a peaceful family environment with normal social and democratic country setup. We are a middle class family, maybe mid-middle class in terms of wealth, but completely lower middle class in terms of mindset. Your birthplace Agia, though not a developed country or metro city, is full of warmth and loaded with all basic facilities. The country you will born is one of most economically aspiring country in the world. People here has aspirations- to grow big, to outsmart everyone, to make a mark, and to be happy.

You are going to be the biggest experiment/liability/potential asset of my life until now. The bar is too high for you, be ready for this! You have to be successful; but your definition of success should include taking all citizenry with you. Nobody bothers if you write a thoughtful book, unless that book is inspiring millions. Nobody bothers if you become CEO of a billion dollar company; if you could setup a plant of the company in your native/state/country providing employment to a million people, that is success for you. For a powerful person, success is when you are using that power to empower millions.


Come soon, we miss you. 

Deuta

Sunday, March 13, 2022

Are you thinking of returning to Assam?

 Dear Zing,

I'm writing this letter to give you a context how multiple thought processes have gone into enabling you taking an important decision of relocating back to Assam at one point of time in your life (and probably die in the Ulupara graveyard peacefully). 

You must be thinking the biggest decisions of relocating back are the following. You are wrong. There are some other subtle points for which you must be prepared. But let me first write the bigger ones:

1) Money - you must ensure a fixed monthly income considering aspects such as health, children education, entertainment, altruism etc. There are two components - firstly a corpus with sufficient strength for the present and future; secondly, a recurring monthly income to handle operational expenses. Also, important to note the difference between retirement and relocation. You are no way going for retirement. You should be evaluating options such as working from home viz-a-viz other kind of jobs such as ARIAS. You surviving only on business/consultancy is something current Zing can't even imagine.

2) Purpose - this is the most important thing that will help you stay focused in case of distractions. Why are you trying to go back - is it to help your community? is it because you want a community/relative support system? is it because an Assamese song on the public transport system make you smile? is it because you feel you are better placed to create legacy if you are in Assam? is it because you will feel happy in general if you are in Assam? is it because your children will be taken care of by a support system if you be in Assam? is it because of health or climate? is it for a larger cause that is possible only being in Assam? is it for your family(wife, mother, sibling)? is it because you believe you have a thriving circle back in Assam? Or is it little bit of everything? 

In search of road-side land

As per Madat Da, whenever there will be distraction, this purpose will help you ignore things and bring new energy. Even if you can't find one purpose, start dwelling on multiple purposes. The continuation of the purpose(s) is a must if you relocate there. If establishing yourself as a writing is one of your purposes, you must pursue this everyday once you are there, although there might not be any return from that activity on daily life. Also, a purpose can be very selfish like ensuring your own peace of mind.

3) A decision backed by research and arsenals: Whatever decision you will take, that should be backed by research and homeward journey must be equipped with sufficient resources. Apart from thinking, talking with predecessor (Madat Da, Manash, Pranjal Da, Ranjeev Da etc), reading (just ordered 'Your life is what you make it'), writing (such as this blogpost), astrology (eg- visiting Anjali) etc are parts of concrete research. Some arsenals that present Zing is suggesting for you - a piece of roadside land, arranging a continuous income (maybe rent or book royalty), annual/monthly moneyback policy, knowledge on financial market, creating diversified investment portfolio, promoting any education start-up, expectation management with wife, start writing regularly/have book plan ready, a good intellectual circle in Assam, decision between Agia and Guwahati etc.

Now, let me come to the 'other' points or scenarios that are subtle, but you must be prepared to handle. 

1) Suppose you observe the workers of the Jal Jivan Mission are not doing a great job- will you complaint against them, even though the process is troublesome and your friends/relatives might be involved in the wrongdoing? Similarly, will you force the shop owners of the rented rooms of Agia JNM to pay the rent or vacate, by putting forward the cause of the school first, even at the cost of the livelihood possibilities of an acquittance? Also, will you take up such a step for your loved school, whose teachers and students are mostly oblivious of you and your noble objectives.

2) How will you handle the cases that of Kamal or Nivadita Rabha who needs job or money desperately? Running an NGO and asking for donation is definitely one way; but how much would that be sustainable? Are you comfortable in asking for money? Will you be able to keep up your altruism with the reduced connection and less income?

3) When you will take your children to drop at a school (considering a private school), how will you see the children going to a government schools with stitched uniform, maybe internally crying for equality and justice? Won't you find a reflection of 'young Manjit' in all of them? Are you ready to accept you have become an 'upper middleclass' kind of citizen at your own place? How would the people who know you from childhood accept you? More importantly, how would you treat them and your emotions in this interaction? 

4) Today I have to only manage time while deciding going for a domestic trip or dining in a restaurant. If your return leads to a day when you would have to say no to Dr. Anup Gogoi for a Brahmaputra ride or Sameeran for a Manah trip, or planning 2 national trips per year  due to budgetary constraint, will not you go back to the same cash-constrained childhood that you are scared of? 

5) How will you react when you will see a corrupted neighbor buying BMW at Agia? How about a good neighbor buy 3 flats in B'lore? How will you react to Alvaro writing a book on Coding being in a tech company? How will you react Somnath making a trip to the North-pole? How will you react Nina's friends posting photos of Europe trips every year? How will you react your friends from Guwahati having luxuries which you could have had by not shifting to Assam (also assuming shift leading to less income)? How will you react your friend publishing 3 books and 2 Youtube channels and you are far away from completing one book even after your relocation? 

6) Even after much preparation and research, there will be gaps that you will realize only after going back to Assam? How will you react then?

7) If something bad happens after relocation (health wise, financially, family turmoil, career progression etc), will you start blaming yourself?

8) Secretly in some corner of your heart, don't you wish to spend 1-2 year in a foreign country? What would happen to that dream? Tell me, why didn't you pursue that option ever in your life? Are you scared of your Oxford/Amsterdam experience? You have a family now. Will you take that repentance (if you feel strongly) to your grave? 

9) Remember how people reacted when you stayed at Agia post Oxford? I am sure you will agree that was the most useless period of your life, What wrong did you do then? How can you be sure that you are not repeating the same mistakes? 

10) You believe your close family members would be most happy if you return? Are you sure on that from all fronts? Aren't you the only option for them to plan an outing outside Assam?

11) Will you suffer from an intellectual vacuum if you decide to go back? How will you attend the book release prog of Koushik Basu or Amitabh Kant?

12) There will be many rich, famous, happy people? How are you different from them? Or the bigger question maybe- is there a necessity at all that you need to be different? Aren't this 'different' is related to creation of legacy?

13) Are you going to have friend/colleague like Swati (say) with whom the basic definitions of recreation and luxuries differ to such extent that basic comfort levels becomes difficult?

Chalo, you think. But I want to end the letter on a happy note that the Dudhnoi land has been finalized and application for NOC would be submitted to Circle office day after tomorrow.


Yours truly.

Zing (13 March, 2022)

Monday, December 9, 2019

Looking at 'life as period'

Hello Manjit,
How are you doing? Are you still single? Is your book done? Are you still searching a job that is relatable to your wholesome skills?

You know I used to take pride/satisfaction that I invented some concepts. I say, I invented this terminology of seeing 'life at a moment' vs 'life as period'. But later I found out the same philosophy has already been forwarded by Prof Danial Cohenman in a slightly different format, although moot idea is same. I believe my thought process is at par with leading thinkers of this world; but I am not getting the opportunity. Rather, I have not been able to create the opportunity with my current capacity.

A) The first leap out of closet: I was looking at the whatsapp status of Narayan, son of my mother's elder sister. He has joined a block/circle level office as computer operator type job a few months back. He was sharing photos of attending meeting of conference room, video conferencing, a glimpse alongside DC/ADC etc. Coming from the similar background, I know these were big deals back then (even now!). Knowing even a peon or chowkidar in any govt office was considered luckiest. Whenever I find someone (including Narayan) sharing such pictures or updates, I couldn't laugh. A strange type of disappointment bothers me; I feel like crying, or to be honest, I cry sometimes (including today). I see myself, Deuta, Maa or Dada imbibed into those Narayans. I feel so so small. If someone asks is that your 'aukat' , what should I say?
                           Let's not have slightest doubt in your mind that people will eventually attach you with this slightest weak link. After going the above paragraph, many will say, 'C'mon, these are past and not relevant for you now'. I too thought that way. But not always! You will find people who are waiting for the very chance to show you the 'aukat' of the past because you have matched them in the present. Caste, geography, parental income/profession, siblings are examples of such links.

B) Equality & Justice: In my immediate circle, I find 90% of the people started life from a privileged line ahead of me. It makes the comparison very difficult. This realisation first came to me during NIT Durgapur; with times, the percentage of such people has only increased in my circle. I try my best to keep a balance, but that is not possible. Incidentally, the Assamese circle has most people in the fewer percentage category, and my office circle is the highest contributor to the larger percentage category. This constantly gives me two different emotions- firstly, I feel sad for missing the privileges and consider that as the biggest contributor to my current misery/failure/low esteem (of not doing anything significant); secondly, I get zero inspiration from my circle because I consider them as failed product who have only managed my level (which is a failed level) even after starting from a privileged mark. On a different note- I feel good when I see the son of a state Chief Minister becoming the Chief Justice of India. That also means I give recognition to a 'high-fi' level of people where person of my kind don't, in fact, shouldn't get entry. I know, this a very middle class thought -- 'xihot dangor manuh!'. When will I start recognising myself equal to them? Will that self recognition ever come considering the point(A) above?

Dear future self, share your current thought on the two topics above.

C) Hiding truth or exposing knowledge: I think I have super middle class mentality. If you think that is wrong, you must be worried as I have found scientific explanation to carry forward my way of living/thinking. Now, I am in conundrum - am I becoming more middle class or am I getting enlightened with help of new found knowledge?
            I will give two examples- first one is related to finance. Why haven't I bought a car, a washing machine, why am I living in Mahipalpur etc. Robert Kiyosaki has provided all the explanation in terms of asset and liabilities. The theory on minimalism is another eye-opener. Walking to workplace has the health reasoning as well. Overall, I think I am doing nothing wrong. The second one is Cohenman's explanation of 'experiencing self' vs 'remembering self'. The happiness in a moment is forgotten in 6 Sec; it does not even help in decision making. This kind of knowledge has helped me in lot of buying decisions.

Recently I have observed my attention span has decreased. Continuously sitting at a place and writing have become difficult. I have not written a single line for the book in last 4-5 months. 3-4 Article ideas are pending since the beginning of the year. I must understand there is no other way I can make an impact by being alone except writing. The pain of not being able to write is creeping in. This is serious now and I must find a solution.

Enough for today. Now that I have found a way to write to you, I will fall back on this option frequently (hopefully). Take care,


Your Yours truly
Zing



Saturday, March 19, 2016

The concept of Gatyatmak Jyotish and conversation with the founder- Mr. Ashesh Kumar

After Kavita (Jitani) told me about this chap named Ashesh Kumar of West Bengal and his self-promoted concept of Gatyatak Jyotish (Dynamic Astrology), I really became interested.

About Gatyatmak Jyotish: (Curtsy: http://www.gatyatmakjyotish.in/)
Gatyatmak Jyotish is the brain child of Astrologer Sri Vidya Sagar Mahtha, whose scientific bend of mind and life long devotion gave way to this new branch of astrology. Born on 15th July 1939 in the Bokaro district of Jharkhand, Sri Mahtha questioned the reliability of traditional astrology based on the fact that different astrologers gave a different reading of the same horoscope.
Introductory Graph

The main weakness of traditional astrology is related with the calculation of the strength of planets. The surplus of formulas hinder the astrologers to come to a unanimous decision. After studying thousands of horoscopes, he discovered the dynamic strength of planets. The planets can be grouped under 6 different speeds in relation to Earth- (1) Very fast, (2) Fast, (3) Normal, (4) Slow, (5) Retrograde, (6) Maximum retrograde. He concluded in his studies that at the time of a persons' birth, very fast and fast planets grant easy success to their respective signs of the planets to the native. Whereas normal and slow planets give the natives abundant success corresponding to their signs. In the same way retrograde and maximum retrograde planets have a negative effect on the natives. In 1981 the formula of dynamic and static strength based on the angular distance of planets from Sun and Earth was established.

The second flaw in traditional astrology was the calculation of 'dasha-kal.'  After having done years of research work, he found that each planet affects a person's life for a period of 12 years. From birth to the age of 12 years, Moon, 12 years to 24 years, Mercury, 24 to 36 years, Mars, 36 to 48 years, Venus, 48 to 60 years, Sun, 60 to 72 years, Jupiter, 72 to 84 years, Saturn, 84 to 96 years, Uranus, 96 to 108 years, Neptune and 108 to 120 years, Pluto affect human life. Seeing the special effect of various planets during special periods Gatyatmak Dasha Padhati has been established.

On the basis of these two above mentioned scientific basis it was possible to draw a person's life graph charting one's ups and downs, one's pleasures and troubles in life based merely on one's date, time and place of birth. Gatyaymak believes there is no importance to the presence of any planet in a sign of a horoscope, the dynamic and static strength of that planet is more significant, in the absence of which, prediction would be impossible.

My conversation:
 Mr. Ashesh kumar took my birth details via SMS and we fixed an one hour time window to chat. He initiated the discussion and said he would explain the six graphs that he had sent in three parts.

Graph 1

1) First he started with the 12-year period of my lives till now. In general, during the 0-12 years (Moon phase), there are two kinds of children: one who are dynamic, full of confident and enjoys the friends and families; the other is the non-confident one. I was belonged to the non-confident group, he told.

Then during the 12-24 age, there are three types of students-
a) one who enjoys the student life
b) the hard working ones
c) the back benchers who do nothing
I belonged to the category between 2 and 3, he told.

Graph 2
During 24- 36 age, my sole aim was to get reputation. I managed to get bit of reputation after lot of hard work, but I lost the mental peace totally. I have never taken a sleep of 2 hours after taking food (example of leisure). In fact, I have only been running and running; I really don't know what the enjoyment in life. As shown in the graph-2, 2014 was the rock bottom year of my life.

In the next 12-year phase, I will see the exceptional rise. I would start getting positive result by putting lesser effort. My personality, that has been my weakest component, will become my strongest attribute. Though my upward graph has already started, I am still close to the bottom. In summary, the 36-60 age of my life would be wonderful.

2) In the second part, he told me some good/bad things of my life. According to him,
    A. Good things:   1) Property and money would always be with me
                                 2) I have a very strong family to back me up whenever I fall down
                                 3) Siblings (brother, sister) would be a strongest point throughout my life
                                 4) Whatever I set a target, I would somehow meet it.
Graph 3


   B. Negative things:

1) I would be unhappy with my own personality
2) Luck is missing (I need to put 80% to get 20% output)
3) Help from influential persons, being influential is missing
4) I should expect less from my partner



3) In the third part, he explained what are things that I give priority in this life.
  A. I give 20% of my total concentration time towards family matters. Since, I am single, I browse porn sites, Shaadi.com etc regularly, which are 'family' type things. [I am only mentioning his words; for example, I have never even visited shaadi.com]
  B. I am bit workaholic and devote significant portion of my time in office works. But accordingly, the output is not there i.e. my dedication is not actually converting to happiness from work. I must learn 'Smart Working', he suggested.
  C. I give lot of attention to money matters too. But since, I give importance to family more, I can beautifully balance the family and money
  D. In NON-CONCENTRATION area, I hardly give attention to my personality development, physical appearance or confidence building.
Graph 4

After this, he took a break and asked me whether he had been on track. I said YES. Then we had some more unstructured conversation. I asked him two questions
 A. When and how am I getting married
 B. Is there any future study such as PhD.

Mr. Ashesh Kumar asked for time to research on my queries. I called him a week later and discussed my questions. He did not tell anything specific, but expressed his optimism since my 'good days' are around the corner.

The above summarizes our conversation. The upward graph made me happy; I didn't mind spending INR 500/-. Also, this gives me a reason to write a blog post and open a new label in my autobiography blog.

Isn't this interesting? Seeing the future.....wow !!!!

Note on understanding the attached photographs:
Graph 5

1. The Graph-1 reflects enjoyment, pleasure and relaxation in life in which if red graph is above the blue one, it indicates command over circumstance whereas if the red graph is below the blue, denotes circumstances not in command. The graphs closer to the scale 50 stronger in term of gravity, status and ambition in life. 

2. The Graph-2 reflects ambition and growth in our life (if upward, gives growth in the life, however minimizes the pleasure and relaxation) based on the rule, ‘No pain, no gain’, and if downward either shows a relaxed life or a life which doesn’t let any ambition get created.

3. The Graph-3 and Graph-4 reflects pleasure and concentration in different aspects (in percentage) based on our priorities in various aspects of our life.

4. The Graph-5 reflects best and worst aspects of your life in term of life time experience (and planet information).