Birthday Post amidst lockdown from library room

This is an unprecedented time; not sure whether I will witness something like this in my entire lifetime ever. The Corona virus crisis has hit all of us very badly. I am at home since 23 March 2020. The virus induced lockdown has brought disaster to the lives of many. But for me, the days have been eventful. Since today is my birthday, I am committed making it eventful, even though continuous rain is making it difficult.

All my previous birthday posts had a shadow of grim outlook about the future of my personal life. This one is different. This is again a byproduct of lockdown home stay. I should write about this in much details. I am positive for marriage, the other person is also positive, the families are positives as well. Apart from 1-2 negative forces, the external field is almost clear. The wait is now for the Covid-19 virus to slow down, me leaving for Delhi briefly and then come back within 2-3 months for the big day. I am writing these lines at 1-00 PM and might spend time with her in the afternoon.

The day started with me taking bath early and then reading অষ্টোত্তৰ শতনাম after a long time. Then I started my long pending wish of calculating my total value exercise; last time I did the exercise on 1 Jan,2018. I just completed the activity 15 min ago and happy to cross the Crorepati tag. I must confess that I have included the equity investments (whose value is fluctuating), maturity death amounts of the insurances, bad investment decisions and wrong lending decisions into the total count. This inclusion was kind of expected, since my aim was to touch 1 Cr by any means (like me manipulating myself). One more reason of doing this calculation today was the four big upcoming expenditures of my life- Mirza land, my marriage, Moina's marriage and buying a car. So, this peak in my value might resurface again after a decade, or might not even come back to this level ever. Will see! The other way of looking at it - kya ukhar liya maine Cr ko touch karke?

In other important events- Moina baked a cake. Bismita sent a cake through Kaushik in the morning. I have settled the expectation with her, still she keeps sending these gestures, which I don't appreciate much. Through Bhini, I brought two books on Sattriya that I need to gift to Nijara for her new initiative of Sattriyacorner.in. Maa will cook chicken at night. And,......

And, I will resume the Book project from today. In last 4 months, I didn't open this for a day. I am so sorry for this. Now that the LP School project is coming to an end, I must start this again. I feel so guilty for simply sitting on it.

It is 8-00 PM now. I spent the afternoon with the woman who is going to be the most important person very soon.We went to Samaguri and then to the bank of the Brahmaputra. The talk was concentrating on future mainly. I also informed her about Bismita as I was feeling guilty. I keep telling her my biggest fears and hope she will be able to understand and appreciate. This is quite a different birthday in that sense. 

I wish this were the last birthay as a bachelor. Maybe I will be writing blog with someone next year! On career and other front, I just want to hang on, maybe some good progress on the book.

Bless me God, also bless all the good people in the world !