Why am I not attending the NITI Aayog 2nd and Final round interview?

You can very well imagine the restlessness I am living with. Just now (12:00 PM, 8th December 2015) I have decided that I am not going Delhi. Here are the reasons for this decision in priority order:

1) If I don't make through the second round, or even if I get through but don't accept the Young Professional (which anyway, I am not going to accept) position, this will be a big negative point in case NITI Aayog decides to call me for OSD interview. The current scenario 'cleared first round, requested for postpone, and could not make to Delhi' is a better scenario, I believe.

Trying to take decision

2) After witnessing the first round and with no study since I got the invitation for the second round, my self confidence for facing the panel is at bottom. Had I got some time for study and absolutely sure about attending, the situation would have been different.

3) Money related stuff- no TA/DA for attending the interview; GHY- DEL tickets are already crossing Rs 7000/-. The salary is not great comparatively.

4) The 'almost certain' case of the NISG interview- I should be getting the offer within this week. Even if they decide to pay me 12 Lac, that would be better than NITI. Also work wise, Youth affairs role is far better and non-bureaucratic than NITI Aayog one.

5) The mental preparation/trauma associated with a Delhi trip, plus the expectation that built up automatically- I want to avoid all those. Also, maybe I want to fasten the decision making process of accepting the NISG position.

6) Just a few minutes back I called up Mr. Sriram Murty (signatory of my interview invitation letter)
. He told total 150 candidates are called and interview will be on 10th and 11th. There is no possibility of postponing as there is panel and obviously, panel members can't meet everyday.

Well, there are a few points that are questioning my decision:
a) If there is any way to connect the YP final shortlisted candidates with the OSD role, I will lose a golden opportunity, considering I get shortlisted after the second round.

b) There is lot of media observation on this recruitment; maybe the shortlisted candidates are treated as star. Also, as I am turning 32, this is my last chance to be YP.

c) Anything bad can happen to me; if NISG changes its mind, I will be screwed up from both sides.

d) I can very well afford the money for flight and lodging.  Giving excuse for money is just a bullshit reason- you bloody middle class !

Huh!, ok no more argument. I am driving to Jorhat tomorrow to compensate this.