Turning 40

This should have been a public post with lot of insights. Spending 40 years on earth with lot of analysis on my own life, this is expected out of me to produce a masterpiece on this important day. But I couldn't do it. Somehow the darkness of the professional career has overpowered all other emotions. However, taking the life as a whole, you may call this as my immaturity also.

I also thought of hosting a birthday party at home inviting the friends who played an important part during my school days at Agia. I even listed the persons to send invitation. But I have no satisfactory answer to the question "what are you doing these days?", and I cancelled the plan.

The day was spent well. Nina brought a cake and a flower bouquet (from Bongaigaon) , cooked payax, Maa gave thogi. We are also planning to go out in the afternoon. I am planning to do the monthly kharcha at night. (now 4-20 PM)

One new thing I started- made a folder called Birthdays where I will try putting all the available birthday photos. 'Just feel like' kind of activities. I have recently made two folders of photos- social occasion and Zing travel express. 

I was reading through birthday post of 2 years back. Of all the things I planned doing before turning 40, I have not accomplished a single one, except becoming a father. Shame! Shame! 

I am going to take Health seriously from now on. As a first step, I will do Liver Fibroscan since I was diagonized with fatty lever 5 years ago. I am reading ' Own your Body' by Dr. Shiv Sarin and would search a few more books on health and wellness. Health (including happiness) and Finance are two topics I would spend most of my time onwards. 

My current status is not so good from a job/salary perspective. There has not been good news at all. I got a rejection from IIT Mumbai public policy conference which shocked Karuna Da more than me. The ardent delay on the appointments are causing much agony. I am not happily applying for SeMT job, rather under compulsion to stay in Assam for wife, childcare and PhD education. That compromise on the 'linear' career progression decisions are made worst by the uncertainty of chief strategist role, delay of SeMT and rejection for Microsoft roles. I am not sure what the 'good days' that astrologer keeps talking about my present. This is not good, nobody will term this as good situation to be in for a person of my background. On top of everything, the way Dharmapatni is stuck in whatever she does, is making the whole situation really grave. 

Let me end the post with positive note. Let happy days come post by 40th birthday. My Rahu-Jupitaar dasha is ending on 4 Aug and Rahu-Saturn will start. Since there is nothing exciting to look for the days ahead, at least the astrology is something at hand to bring a smile. 

I wish, all the 'reasonable' people of the world has good health and wealth. Aamin!!