Low time - 17th November 2015

For last 4-5 days I have been feeling very low, mentally too down, no energy, hope or aspiration. I was trying to analyse:

1) The Prashant Kishor effect as I wrote in my last post. It seems Tarun Gogoi reached out to him as well. However, report says IPAC was working fairly independent of Citizens Alliance; but I missed a chance and there is no point of searching 'feel good' points.

Taken at Dudhnoi at a political rally, but captures my mood for this post

2) I have built high hope on the NISG interview. Two weeks have passed and I have not heard back. I was surprised to find the advertisement of consultant-volunteer coordinator position in the NISG website, which was supposed to be a sub-task of the role I applied. My narrative has become- "I completed one year of volunteering, now time to search jobs, waiting result for an interview with Digital India". I am not sure how I would react if this result comes negative.

3) The family issues- we need to complete the half-constructed house, Dada has not been able to manage finance and borrowed money from me, Bou is in hospital, Dada is also not well, Moina is still in transition state, I am in hung state, Maa have frequent health issues and not comfortable to live alone anymore and so on. Overall, some kind of negative and non-aspiring atmosphere at home.

I would be tremendously happy if I got the OSD- NITI Aayog position, Dada transfers back home or within 100 KM range, Moina starts working, we completed the house construction...ok, leave them!

Zubeen fans have organized 'Zubeen Festival'- I believe this is the pinnacle how much people can love you.