17th October 2015 - Four years of the day that ended 'Microsoft torture'

October 17 letter in the year 2011

I still remember the moment. It was afternoon time- I was sitting in my chair, opened yahoo-mail and my life changed in a fraction of second. To appreciate the importance of that moment I must explain what I went through for the year prior to 17th October2011. I didn't have any option; so the question of joining vs not joining didn't come that time. Forget about option, I was dying that time with a 'framed forced resignation notice' on my head. Those were definitely horrible days of my life so far.
I have already clarified in this blog that my current condition is far better than that of year 2011. I am still 'without an option', frustrated, 'desperate for a change' ; but there are two major differences compared to 2011-- a) I am at home and b) the maturity of my thought process post Oxford and post 2011.

The only thing worrying me currently is that I am not doing anything significant that might work as good investment for the future. I keep thinking lot of things, but lack the willpower to drag that thought into concrete output. I wish I have some catalysts here to push me, such as energetic friend, bugging magazine editor, forced obligation etc. I always thought I can pull myself alone- this is again proved to be wrong.

There are a few new thoughts as well-
a) It is not always necessary to be in the government to have work satisfaction. If after so many attempts the government does not want people like me, what else can I do?
b) Like the non-profit, I feel, being in executive role also have arrays of limitations. If I have to do kind of things I imagine, I have to be in legislature.
c) The extent till which people can appreciate 'act locally' endeavor is limited. No matter how much I do at local level, it is limited and outsider also got bored too easily. If that gives you mental peace, fine. But for me, as you know, I dream high; so, limited stuff does not give me slightest satisfaction.
d) Time (which I am defining as the supreme power) always reserves some decisions with it. Maybe there is no need of long-term planning. If someone needs to invest time, he should do it only on short-term goals.

Does that put me in the same line with witch believers cum hunters? May be yes.
Am I expecting a miracle today on 17th October 2015? Definitely no.