I turned 31 today. I am typing this blog with the laptop whose
three keys are not working.
One of the most hopeless birthdays of my life! Today was the
last day of World Bank’s YPP application; I did. I also helped by issuing an experience
certificate to DoliRani who suddenly called me yesterday after several years. I,
along with Ranjan & co finished the store house realignment work. Dada came
home with the new car- i20 Active. I also called up Dipanka da for any help in
my UNDP application yesterday-not a great respond though. The iBall modem issue
seems to coming to an end. I bought chicken and cake for the family people.
There is no positive event in my foresight that could enlighten
me up. I am feeling very down. Almost a year without any job after an Oxford degree!
I could have planned better probably.
How am I acting as 31 years old? Have I contributed enough
to the society, to my family and friends? I see the life of a few great people
and I feel ashamed of myself. This has been
a typical life so far, except the Oxford thing. O Lord! Give me more strength!
Was my decision correct to switch from technology, I mean
IT? I didn’t have slightest doubt up until a few months back. But now, I do question
myself.
The laptop and the modem are just two examples how the worst
is happening with me now. I have been forced to believe astrology because only
that can try to explain the unusual happenings in my surrounding.
Maa is very optimistic that things will turn after my
birthday date. I smiled.
Dear God, I expect you should help me now. Otherwise, I will start living a life only for
my own.
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